I Turned It Off, To Be A Better Person

Lately there are many things that I have been doing with my life... That I'd prefer if I didn't. I'm leaving to fix these problems, because I know I'm better than that.

Tonight I shut my phone off, because what was offered to me, was done in such a way...that it made me feel like that was the only reason people wanted to be around me, like it was the only thing that could bring me out. Like I was just a party friend.

A party is great and all, and party friends are great and all. But when I say I'm with my family, my sister, her husband, and the children, respect that please. Especially seeing how I've only got a week left in town before I venture off.

When I say I'm staying home "oh but we've got...." Isn't going to make me come out and play. Honestly, the reply should be "alright Sammy, see ya tomorrow :) " or some such shit.

"oh but we've got....."

Yeah well I got to spend a night sober, with my nieces and nephew. We played Uno. I held the baby. Can't hold the baby for two days if I went for the "well we got..." type thing.

All I'm saying is, maybe that text came across the wrong way, and my emotions on it are out of place.... But my friends, should know that when I say no, my mind is made up, and trying to convince me to come out with booze and other such things is not going to work.
Especially when I look at Sienna, my 3 month old niece.

I'm happy. I got to sit here, at the kitchen table and have fun with Angel, Owen, Sienna, and my sister Sarah. I got to laugh with Sarah, laugh like I haven't laughed in a little while, straight from the belly, almost causing tears. I got to have a day, that I will enjoy.

I don't need something to enhance my happiness.... When I have such a wonderful family.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at anyone, I'm not saying their idiots. I'm all for their choices. All I'm asking is; That if I say no, I'm not coming out tonight. Please don't try to convince me otherwise, or make me feel like I'm going to be missing out on some grand adventure.

I had a grand adventure tonight, listening to three beautiful children laugh and by getting to play card games with them.

I've had an amazing day, and an amazing evening.

And now dear friends.... I am off to finish my book. Because it is amazing and insightful and I enjoy reading more than anything.... and I've found the time for it today....

Save travels.

-S