Its been crazy.

Well, interview today. Goodluck to me.
Then visit dad in the hospital. Oh dad, sometimes you scare me shitless. Get better papbear <3 I love you. Sending all my best wishes to youuuu.
And then home again home again. to make phone calls and update everyone on whats going on.
So much to do.
Oh and organzie stuff to go on boat vs storage. And then pack the boat. And hopefully I will get a day of sunshine so I can put that second coat on the boat for dad, that way he doesnt have to stress out.. Yes yes indeed.

Lots to do, no time to waste. so I will write later

-S

Hm.Poem

I wish I had the words to tell you,
what I really want to,
like how simple things could really be.
I wish that I could tell you,
whats really on my mind.
But I'll just have to suffice in being,
just your distant friend.
I feel like I've known you,
for longer than I have.
Which leads to silly daydreams
in every second thought.
I wish that I could tell you,
its going to be okay,
and yesterdays don't matter,
'cause we have eachother today.
And in all these silly ramblings,
I've advoided the whole point.
In the plot of this whole story,
I adore you a whole lot.



-S

"Waitin' for you, to come on home, and turn me on"

Listened to Norah Jones in the car today... Made me happy :)

Got up, painted boat with dad. Felt like I accomplished something. Went online to look for jobs while I wait for my aunty to print off resumes for me (I'm lacking a printer at the moment), found some excellent job opportunities. :) Quite excited about it.

Hopefully they work out well. They only wanted resumes either 1) faxed in or 2) emailed in. So I did that, with cover letter and resume. (I do have an internet connection here! yaye!)

Hopefully they call and I get an interview and a job. That would be awesome. It would be great to get a job and not have to wait for EI to come in. It would mean that I work all summer and don't get a chance to go to hometown to visit... But setting up a life here and possibly going just for a weekend in the summer will be much more satisfying than being stuck on ei.

Heres hoping!

-S

I wrote this tonight

She told herself she didn’t want to write about you tonight because shes not sure she trusts her own emotions; You are at the forefront of her brain once again. When shes got the time to think you are revived in her mind. She does not take the time to contemplate these words; no point in trying to display them eloquently. They are words on a page.

She realizes the time is late and she should sleep. Unfortunately she lacks the ability to tell you she wants to grow old by your side. So she’ll write the many words here instead. She thinks of the short time you had together and wonders how she can base all these emotions on those couple encounters. The conversations never stopped and even though she is miles from you, they still continue.

She worries because you talk of making big life changes, and you keep them secret. She ponders wether the way she feels would change anything in your plans. Fate has a way of working; the words she uses to comfort herself. In love shes failed many times; Shes stopped trying. Shes yearning for something real to find her for once.

Its odd to think, she says shes given up, but if she were to flip a coin for a life with or without you, she knows what she’d secretly be hoping for. Theres a longing in her heart. She’ll never open her mouth and risk the hurt with you though. Arguments are posed inside her mind, she argues a relationship could never work because of the distance. She listens to her brain screaming back; her reasoning is absurd. Should these emotions be real and meaningful, the distance wont matter. She understands that voice is right. She wants you to take her hand, and show her.

She supposes you’ll never be able to prove her right if she never says anything, but she doesn’t want to face defeat again.

If you said no, you’d shatter her heart, therefore she is content to just be around you.

-S

Random story I wrote last night.

My heart flutters with anticipation. His hand reaches out to mine; ever so carefully I take it. Oh how this slight touch sends chills through my body. Now, passion that words could not describe fills me. I gaze into his eyes, his smiling delicate eyes. He peers at me back, and I wonder if its really me he is thinking of. But for now I am content with this hand. A hand seemingly carved from stone. I can feel the rough calouses and I can hear the stories they tell. They tell me volumes about this man. A man dedicated to work, to life, to this love.


A smile flutters accross his mouth and he leans in to kiss me. I taste his lips, soft and delicate against mine; they say I love you. A smile now touches the corner of his mouth again, and I can not help but smile back. For the moment we share is a whole new world for both of us. We say our vows.


I study him as the sun beats down and he toils with his hands. He labours not out of nesecity but out of love. Love for the family we are starting. He glances over his shoulder at me and smiles. A smile that fills me with joy and peace. How did I end up so lucky?


We sit in the den and take in our in child play. His rough caloused hand in mine. His lips still soft and delicate. His smile still warm and inviting. We grow with our child through the years, our feelings changing, but never losing their initial passion.


Now as I glance at him I can see how the years working in the sun have ravaged his face; to me he is still handsome. More so now than the day I met him. I once again take his hand; the same rough calouses. These hands built so much. They toiled and ached, they have been bruised and pained. Yet he did it all with no complaint. These hands of his, now cold in mine, built our house, and fed the fires of our love. Now they are cold with age, and death meets him at our door. And like an old friend come to call, I can only smile; a wifes knowing smile, and let his caloused hand go.



-S

SunShiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine!

Sun is shining today.

Happy day.

Coffee, smoke, get ready.. Off to see Mike and catch up and have a drink for st.Patricks day.

File EI again tomorrow.

Hopefully money comes in next week.

Hopefully get to visit hometown friends next week.

Today is a good day.

Baha.

Muchloves.

-S

Up & Downs; And thats why Life is a Rollercoaster.

So, down of the day: not going back to hometown to visit this week. Will go next week. Hopefully. All depends on when money comes through.

Up of the day: Going out to Campbell river tomorrow for the night to visit my old Highschool friend Mike. Shall be nice to grab a beer and catch up.
Up of the day: Fixed my hair, went to the beach with mum and she took some really nice photos on me, and visited with Granny.

All in all, Delightful day. Will be delightful indeed when I get to go to hometown and visit again, Sure do miss some certain people there.

So my girlfriend Stacey is off to Ontario now. I shall miss her even more. Thank god for facebook, we shall not lose contact atleast, even if we both break or lose our phones (baha, we're prone to do that) oH sNAP. Baha. Miss ya beautiful... Good luck in all your adventures and I hope that it all works out for you. You diserve the world <3.

Still trying to convince my Amy-ness to move out here. I even found the Yellowbrick road today. Posted a picture to show her... But she made me speachless when she told me I was her yellowbrick road. Always leading her to happiness and such. She makes me glee.

Yess, I just said she makes me glee. There is not many other words that I can use to describe how full of joy and love and hope and everything she makes me. I have to break down and say it, she is my bff. Yes thats right. I said bff. Bestfriend forever. I was to lazy to type it before. but i did it just there. now deal with it. Amy makes me glee.

Hope Brians phone still works tomorrow. been iffy lately. haha. He makes me smile when i feel down and lonely. Texts me and reminds me that its all going to work out. Thanks Bri. You rock. :)

Don't know who the hell actually reads my posts. Dont really care much either I suppose. I said it in the very very first post... I write these for me.

Anyways. I was kind of pouty this morning. but between family and wonderful friends I'm much happier.

Now if my feet would retain some warmth and quit playing dead I would be much happier. baha.

Well I suppose I should sleep. I wont be blogging tomorrow because I will be in campbell River. Will blog upon my return.

MuchlovesReaders

xoxo

-S

Swing Life Away.

So, Japans had earthquakes, and tsunamis and they're nuculear plants are malfunctioning and blowing up. And we're facing Radiation leaks. And by facing I mean that radiation leaks are happening.
Life is scarey. I just get here, to the Island, and things are supposed to be changing for the better. I make a choice that is good for me, and the world decides that its going to hell... Screw you world. Now is not the time to take a turn for the worst.
You can try to make me run and hide, But even if I go to visit, I'm still coming back here. I am still going to come back and live my life. You don't get to make this choice for me world. You don't get to do this to me.
I know this is coming accross as a woe is me entry. And guess what it is. I get here, japan pretty well sinks. VIU goes on strike, my EI is taking its sweet as time coming through, my Tax return isnt in yet either. The weather is shit. Theres a list of things ten fucking feet long and look at it world. Take a fucking look at it. I'm still here. I'm still trying.
Now heres a question to the rest of everyone else out there. What are you doing to change? I don't drive needlessly, I car pool when I can, I don't leave needless lights on, I try not to waste things, I make meals me sized, I recylce, I try not to buy wasteful products. I'm trying to do my part. I'm trying. And what is everyone else doing?
Where are we going?
You know why this is all happening don't you? Because unless things like this happen, no one seems to care. You think with all those crazy enviromental disaster movies out there like "the day after tomorrow", "2012" and even those crazy low budget ones that look cheesy, we'd be making more of an effort to do better than what we are now.
But no.

I guess we're just so appathetic to the world and how things are that we don't believe they'll ever change. Well guess what. WE ARE THAT CHANGE THE WORLD NEEDS.

This is not the world I oneday want to leave to my unborn children. Should there be a world left for me to have them in. I don't want to be a zombie invaded world when I should be having children. I'll be a mean old hag then, and then you fuckers can all watch out... Sammy will deffinatly have some anger issues then.

I'm so mad. Just when I think things should go good, and that things are going to pick up. I have to worry about how the major winds are prevailing and this nuclear fallout from Japans nuclear meltdown because should they release lots of nuclear matter into the air, it can carry accross the ocean to us, here on the island. And that news my friends, fucking sucks.

Doesn't matter where we go, in essance no one is safe then. If it gets in the air we're all pretty well screwed. So tell me my friends, Mr. Government & Your associates, Mr. Nuclear power lobbiest and such, How is this is benificial to the planet? Even if disasters like this are few and far between, The risk, how does the reward outway the risk? And I'm not going to even start in on all the nuclear waste that is produced from these facilities... You can't tell me that its all dealt with properly... How do you even deal with it properly?

I'm sure all this nuclear testing, and nuclear power and waste and things that we have created are the reason that things are getting so bad. Such as our thinning Ozone layer and global warming. You can't tell me that global warming is a joke either, when 100 years ago Niagra falls froze over....completely. And could you imagine that now? HA! Please.

I'm not some scientist, with a giant scientisty brain. I'm a 21 year old woman, who has watch the world infront of me crumble. And with the advanced technology we have, I have stayed updated on it. I have kept well informed.

And though my thoughts may not flow out of my finger tips in an organized and well put together way, it doesn't change what I'm saying. It doesn't change the fact that what I've said is true.

Eventually, we are going to end up like one of those bad horror flicks that we watch in a movie theatres, and everyones going to wonder why.

And I will still be here saying that we all, even me, had a part in it. But it should be up to our government to make a change for the better, and make a change for the world. We are that change. We have to be.

But so far, as far as I can see, we are being let down... and we are letting the world down. We need to assist yes, but we need to find new and innovate ways to power the world other than what we have. and we need to make a change to preserve what we have. Not let all these devastating events ruin us.

But after all is said and done. nothing will happen. After all, who would ever listen to a 21 year old woman with no scientific degree?

No one, and thats sad. Because I haven't lost sight of what its like to live in the real world.

-S

(Post Script: That real world by the way, is down here, where the average person lives.)

Its okay because We Have Webbed Feet & Lead Umbrellas.

In a rather weird mood today.

Slightly upset. Miss home... where ever that is. Miss having friends. Dads not doing the best. Very down. Very emotional. Finding this all very hard to deal with.

Im moaping today.

Thinking maybe I'll make it into merritt for the 17th. Need to find someone to pick me up at the ferry though. Ho-hum. I've got a couple days to organize and figure it all out. Don't know what to do. Don't know.

I'm upset today. Upset. Sad. Happy. Emotional.

Emotional indeed.

-S

Another Day, Another Dollar.

Or twenty. Hahaha.

I felt rather lonely today. As I do not know really know anymore on the Island, I don't have much to do with my days. Looked for work and applied for some jobs online today. Suppose that maybe tomorrow I should take drive into Nanaimo and apply for some jobs... But y'know... If my EI came in... then I wouldn't be in such a rush.

Haha quaint idea that it. I hate not working. Yes I suppose it'd be nice to be able to laze around and not do a whole lot of anything...but I'm chomping at the bit to get back to work... I miss working.

So in light of being bored and lonely and all the changes... I decided to change my hair. It was supposed to be chocolate brown on top, and vanilla on the bottom... like the underside of my hair was supposed to be vanilla blonde... But my hair is so dark naturally that it didn't really work... just sort of turned orange.... Suppose I'll have to pick up a cheap package of hair bleach in the morning. Maybe. Who knows, maybe I'll wake up and like the orangey red colour.

So anyways. It was monday today. I got to wear my new " I :( Mondays " tee. Pretty stoked about that... And I realized that in about 16 days I'll be living on the sailboat with mum and dad going "what was I thinking?!" The ferry makes me seasick for christ-sake. But ohwell. It shall be ever so adventurous.

No one believed me when I said that I was going to leave that little town, move to the Island, get my life together. But look at me now. Randomly packed up my things, gone and moved.. and in about a week and a half I'll be living on a sailboat.

Take that non-believers!

Maybe I've gone and taken things a step to far... BUT Well... Christ, I couldn't go on forever there now could I? I mean, I could've. I could've gone to school there and I could've stayed there... But that place... I don't know. I grew up there, its my home town. I didn't want to grow old and die there.

I crave adventure. And thats just what I'm getting. The story might be a little slow on the pick up right now. But I'm sure it'll become rather intriguing and infatuating later on. Very shortly. Never takes me long to figure it out and pick up the pace.

I do miss all my friends. I know. So repetitive of late. Boohoo Sammy misses her friends. Well guess what, I DO! So there. (and yes Sarah, I miss you too. I include you in my friends because you are my sister, and therefore the best of these aforementioned friends! :P Take that... oh and HV! Bahaha )

Anyways, of no importantace or relevance to anything, I'd like to say now that I've lost my train of thought.

-S

Rain, when you leave... Take this headcold with you!

So, I got my camera working now. YAYE! I can take photos! Super stoked for that... And it only cost me 10$ (well 11 something) to get the charger for my battery. And then i got some more shirts (cause yes...apparently i need those).

So anyways, yesterday I went shopping, today we have dinner with Grandpa and Aunty Susan. Roast beef I believe? Anyways, would be much better if my head wasn't all messed up with this stupid headcold.

Totally unfair to by the way! I get here and I get sick! Ugh! I knew I shouldn't have left all my neocitran at Sarahs. hahaha

So I find it very hard to put together outfits to cover all my tattoos. Its only for when im around Granny and Grandpa....but its still complicated....as I've been so used to showing them off lately. haha.

Ohwell, Yesterday I got a compliment from Granny... She likes my style :) Booya!
So today im sitting here - i didnt get up til 1pm.- and im enjoying, yes, ENJOYING my cup of chemicals and writing to whoever reads this.
My life ins't very interesting so far. I have no friends here to write of yet. Got to chat a bit to my cousin yesterday. I should harass him to introduce me to some people...he's only a year or two younger than me. Hm, brilliant idea, for next time I talk to him :)

So I've been texting alot with Brian, most of my other conversations with friends from that place have been through facebook. Seems most everyones forgot my number. 'sept for Stacey, she texts me too. I miss everyone so much! Friggin' hell! But I had to go do this, because its better for everything. :) Besides, all those f*ckers will have to roadtrip down to visit me! And then we can party on the beach and go camping. Best place to camp = Vancouver Island!! There, so take that!

I don't know what life holds for me, but I have decided that I'm Fly-paper for Freaks. It always seems that I tend to attract some of the creepiest people. Dustin and Stu knows that one from when we were sitting in the bar and the creepy B.F.I with the black-eye wouldn't leave us alone. I don't know, I'll deffinatly miss it there. I deffinatly do. Even if I was fly paper for freaks there. I don't seem to be here. Like I wrote last time, I met a nice guy on the ferry. Don't have his number or anything, but he was nice, didn't appear to be a freak. Maybe things are changing for me here. Maybe I'll be fly-paper for normal people.... I think that'd be rather boring, so maybe it'll just be for semi-normal/slightly-freakish people. Hahaha.

Only I could write something as retarded as that and get away with it.

Anyways, my back hurts and my head it "ugh" (thats the only way to explain it!) so I'm going to go.

PEACE!

-S

Day One

Its cold here. Not cold like mean cold, or cold like Alberta cold. Cold like a wet cold. To the bone. Theres a chill that I'm not used to. And it rains alot. Hahaha.

No! I am not complaining, not one bit. I love it. I love this rain forest I live in now. Its beautiful.

I had a good day today, got to visit my Granny (my mums mum) and my Grandpa (my dads dad) and got a slight visit from my Aunty Debbie (my mums sister).
Pretty sure I made her think I'm schizophrenic because I said that Japan sunk because I moved to the island, that whole butterfly effect thing y'know. Hahaha I was totally kidding... But I'm pretty sure she thought I was serious.

Teehee Its quite the sense of humour I have these days.

I greatly miss my sister and friends. I'm not lonely, but I do miss their company. I miss you all so much.

Anyways, I'm making dinner with Mum tonight, pork chops, creamed corn (regular corn for Dad, as he dislikes creamed corn very much), salad, and scalloped potatoes(and a baked potato for Dad, as he is not fond of scalloped potatoes either, haha). Yummm :)

Just waiting for dinner to be ready now.

Today was rather uneventful. Tomorrow hopefully I'll get into Nanaimo to see if I can get a charger or a battery for my camera...Then I can post pictures. :) Pictures always seem to make my days more eventful.

Love Peace & Chicken Grease! Bahahah

-S

And The Journey Truly Begins!

Well Ladies and Gentlemen,

I am on the Island. I am no longer in that little shitbox of a town. My journey has begun. I am sad to leave behind my sister and my good friends, but the memories we have made will last a life time... plus I know we will have more to come!

This isn't a goodbye to them. It is an end of a chapter in my life, yes, but not a goodbye, they will not be forgotten, nor will they be ignored. And time will tell me who my true friends are.

Eitherway. I'm super excited. I'm here with my Mum & Dad, yayyeeee. And tomorrow I get to go see Grandpa. I haven't seen Grandpa in almost a year. Crazy eh? Anyways, I'm happy that I get to take some time to me, and enjoy a little bit of life and get situated on the island before I start my job hunt and looking for a house.

- - -

So the trip down? HELL!! the first leg of my journey cw road. That was fine. Sun was shining roads were good. Amazing. Hit the highway..... It was a little slushy. No biggie. Get up larson hill... BAM Right before the top of larson hill...... SNOW. Road conditions crap for my shitty tires. Just.... not good. Rain, which turned into snow, which turned into sleet and made the roads slushy. Ugh it was a gongshow.

Mothernature was testing me to see how badly I wanted to go. Well Mothernature... I made it to the ferry in 3 and a half hours. SAFELY.

So then I get on the ferry, no delays. Go up, go to the cafeteria... and boom, not open BUT there was no one else in line yet, so I was the first to get my food. Ate that in like five mins flat.
Decided I needed an after food smoke (ya, I know, bad habit!) went up to the deck, not paying attention to anything, this guy comes up to me and starts talking to me.

Him: "Did you see the dolphins?"
Me: "No I must have missed them. Damn, that would have been so neat!"
H: "No, they're still here!" -points- "Come see!"
M: "Ohmy! Wow!"

we get to chatting, but im to lazy to put the whole conversation down. We chatted for most of the ferry ride. He was a cutie. I made a ferry friend :)

Then when I got off the ferry, and back onto the highway.... it started to piss down rain, and it was a sketchy drive.

Guess I'm going to have to get used to the rain. Hm, So far... its been an interesting trip. And Im rather excited to see what each day after this holds.

Things are looking up.

-S

Last Night In This Place.

Well, Here it is.

The Last Night Here.

Its kind of sad. Ive grown rather fond of this stupid little town. And I grew quite fond of the friendships I started to make here. I am deffinatly going to miss everyone (mostly).

I feel sad, but at the same time, I feel so relieved to get going. I don't want to be stuck here for my entire life. There is so much more world to see, and so many more places to live.... But I don't want to leave my friends either. Ive made some good ones here.

But I guess thats the point isnt it. Life is a journey and its all about sharing that journey with people. Even though I'm going alone, I have so many memories shared with people here, and I'll stay in contact with them.

Im happy to say that Ive made a couple more friends that when I come back, whenever that is, when we meet up, itll be like no time has past at all, and we can pick up that conversation that we didnt finish before I left.

Friends like that are few and far between.

So heres hoping that all works out... I know it will :)

Catch-ya on the flipside

- - - Post Script.... Watch out for the H.V! Bahahahahahahhahahah.

-S

Perhaps, I May Have Been Gutless Today.

Yes, as I already stated. Perhaps it was I who was slightly gutless today.

I had the chance to talk to jerkface, and figure all this out. And when the time came... All I could think was "Do I really want to know? Really Sammy,.. Do you want to know"

And judging by the fact that there wasn't much said other than:

Me: "what was with the facebook message a couple days ago?"
Him: "what message?" -worried look on his face-
Me: "The one that was all 'if you love something let it go... if it comes back, its yours.....im still waiting' .... That message...."
Him: "Oh shit.. sorry Sammy, I was really fucked up when I wrote that......" -Wont make eye contact...at all-
Me: "well...then....uhm.... The drunken messages really have to stop......"
Him: "you staying for dinner?"
Me: "Naw, Feel like spagetti...probably just go home and make it for everyone there..."
Him: "K, well if you feel like hangin out or watching a movie... or talking later.... We should probably talk later once things quiet down around here...."
Me: "Ya.... See ya later."

Judging by that. I don't know. I don't want to know anymore. I don't want to have a conversation thats going to do anything. Today, I'd prefer to just leave it as it is. Nothing. But now, atleast hopefully... The drunken messages will stop. Which will in turn. Make this all easier.

Leaving next week.

That'll be much easier as well if all these drunken messages stop.



I hope.


-S

Werewolves? Phst. Vampires? Please. Lawyers? Eeek!

Well... I've finished the book that I had set aside for this week and the ferry. What the fuck to do now?

Oh right, deal with life. That is after all what I read to escape. Haha.

- - -

So anyways, now that I've thrown that out there... The whole point of this post really wasn't about finishing my book at all, well, not totally. The book just reminded me that I can't just sit around and be that freak that never deals with problems.

Yeah, in otherwords, quit waiting for the conversation to come to me. The problem wont be solved unless I file the paperwork to get the correct information.... so to speak anyways...

So here it is. I finish my book (good book, I'd recommend it to anyone. "Howling" By Tom Holt. ) and I remember, oh yeah, guess its time to close those accounts, finish up this nasty buisness, and get paid.... once again so to speak.

Jerkface is sort of my Allshapes account....Wont balance right, can't close it off. Been trying to figure it out for years. Well fuck it. I'm tired of working on it now. I've remember what lifes all about again. Not sitting in some shabby little office trying to make the words work. Nope.

I'm just going to jump out there, run full tilt at it, and find out whats really there. Tried that once in a round-a-bout sort of way. Failed miserably. But hey, wasn't really prepared for the case. Didn't have the perspective that I do now.

So I guess what I'm really trying to say is, I filed the paperwork today. In the form of a message to Jerkface that simple stated something along the lines of this (not an exact quote):

"We need to have a serious conversation. You can decide when. Never is of course an acceptable answer, as it will speak volumes."

And then look at that, time to clock out for the day. An answer, as in "lets go for coffee tomorrow" or "how does now sound?" or something along those lines, means guidlines will be set out, along the lines of, "if you'd like to keep telling me you love me, then be with me...If you don't want to be with me, quit being so full of 'you have my soul' 'i love you' junk"....Never, on the other hand, means one of two things: 1) Jerkface is really a chickenshit or 2) He never really meant anything he said.

Either way...fine by me. Atleast I'll know, and can be content with whatever the outcome is. I didn't lie about it. Hide feelings, mask them, act.....lawyer-ish about the situation...possibly. But lie about it? run from it? No.

Not this time. I'm standing the ground I have, because I'm not going to leave with what ifs in my head and possible regrets to follow.

So here it is world.... Heres what I've become. Because I've had to. I've morphed into a sort of Lawyer-ish creature... the worst monster of all. And I believe I'm better for it.

-S

I Turned It Off, To Be A Better Person

Lately there are many things that I have been doing with my life... That I'd prefer if I didn't. I'm leaving to fix these problems, because I know I'm better than that.

Tonight I shut my phone off, because what was offered to me, was done in such a way...that it made me feel like that was the only reason people wanted to be around me, like it was the only thing that could bring me out. Like I was just a party friend.

A party is great and all, and party friends are great and all. But when I say I'm with my family, my sister, her husband, and the children, respect that please. Especially seeing how I've only got a week left in town before I venture off.

When I say I'm staying home "oh but we've got...." Isn't going to make me come out and play. Honestly, the reply should be "alright Sammy, see ya tomorrow :) " or some such shit.

"oh but we've got....."

Yeah well I got to spend a night sober, with my nieces and nephew. We played Uno. I held the baby. Can't hold the baby for two days if I went for the "well we got..." type thing.

All I'm saying is, maybe that text came across the wrong way, and my emotions on it are out of place.... But my friends, should know that when I say no, my mind is made up, and trying to convince me to come out with booze and other such things is not going to work.
Especially when I look at Sienna, my 3 month old niece.

I'm happy. I got to sit here, at the kitchen table and have fun with Angel, Owen, Sienna, and my sister Sarah. I got to laugh with Sarah, laugh like I haven't laughed in a little while, straight from the belly, almost causing tears. I got to have a day, that I will enjoy.

I don't need something to enhance my happiness.... When I have such a wonderful family.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at anyone, I'm not saying their idiots. I'm all for their choices. All I'm asking is; That if I say no, I'm not coming out tonight. Please don't try to convince me otherwise, or make me feel like I'm going to be missing out on some grand adventure.

I had a grand adventure tonight, listening to three beautiful children laugh and by getting to play card games with them.

I've had an amazing day, and an amazing evening.

And now dear friends.... I am off to finish my book. Because it is amazing and insightful and I enjoy reading more than anything.... and I've found the time for it today....

Save travels.

-S