Monday, April 9, 2012

Going under.

I'm very down today.

Now that i've worked a 13 hour day, the tears are here. and its not because of work, im just tired, and i'm trying to stop smoking, and  I had two or three, maybe four. I dont know, I just want to stop and it sounds funny but its an addiction non the less, and its hard to stop. I feel like I cant....

Today everyone in my family (& 1/2 the extended family) are having easter dinner. wish I was there.

But im not. so sitting alone in my house, listening to music will have to suffice. just like my peanut butter sandwich had to.

I guess I should just crawl into bed & go to sleep. 4 am comes early.

Im trying so hard to not feel this bad for no reason, but I feel absolutely devastated for no real reason.

I feel so isolated today.

-S

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