And I have to remind myself.

I have to remind myself its okay to feel.

Emotions are normal. however mine may sway to extreme ups and downs, they are the normal for me.

I feel like screaming, i feel like laughing, i feel like crying. all the the same time. and thats just a brief over veiw.

the general feeling is despair. and for no reason.

I have no reason to feel on the negative side of things. I would rather have this than a pill induced version of a happy emotion. Rather this than a fog of days running together.

So I just have to keep telling myself that its okay to feel.

I am okay.

-S